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Yikes 36 days and we will be in Thailand. It seems to be coming very quickly.
So I am in my second week of OPT/remix.
  I had 2 days of back to back reload. Really bizarre to be eating this way.
I chose not to step on the scale for this last 2 days and think I will wait till Friday to see the "reload" result. I know its all about long term but..... Old habits do die hard.
10 days till my next reload and I have  a suspicion that I will realize some hard core results in that time.
I think my body is primed to respond it just needed a program that I would follow to the letter.
Given the fact I am truly at my last 10/15 lbs and that I have increased my LBM I do not see how I cannot.
So 10 days of go hard. I am going to increase my walking again and plan to reincorporate my nightly yoga. 36 days is not a long time to be beach ready.
This whole trip feels very surreal. I guess because its a  bit spur of the moment and I have no pre expectations. What is wierd that its not weird is that this is the first time I will actually be meeting Dana yet I feel like I have known her forever and that does not feel weird...see weird

In relation to my bipolar I have to say getting up at 7 is a chore. Its interesting how the change in season brings this on. I am using my SAD lamp and doing all the things I should but my brain does not like it.
I had a course to attend today and it was a major struggle to get up in time. I had wondered if I was just being a bit lazy but no its a real reaction.
For the most part its not a big deal if I do not get up till 8 but it is interesting to observe the change.

3 more days for Rachel. She had an MRI today, highly stressful I imagine.
I find it hard to be at such a distance from her. I wish I could go and make her a cup of tea and have a good cry.
This is just so hard for her and Gary plus the kids. I think of them all day.
Hug GF.....