Where does it stop

I am overwhelmed. I am not feeling better. Now I am using a day lamp for sad and if I recall correctly have 10 prescriptions in the medicine cabinet.
Somewhere deep down inside I start to realize this is not the way. In an attempt to do something I go on a popular but crazy diet/cleanse. For 21 days I drink lemon water, I do not lose any weight. 21 days of water, how can that be. Lillian is not happy, stop she says that cannot be right.
I make an appointment with a naturopath hoping for some sort of solution, anything. I am desperate and know something is wrong. The Naturopath makes some suggestions , runs some tests and wants me in her office one a week. Something is wrong, we all now know this. On the list of vitamins and natural supplements is 5 HTP. Hmm I think, I seem to recall that being contraindicated with seroquil. So I go online to check before I buy it. Now I had researched seoquil or thought I had. What I found was a research paper. As I read this paper I sat stunned and then I began to cry. Sob is more like it. All of the cravings the wieght gain all of it right there. The clincher, seroquil had not been tested for Bi polar, they just thought it worked. They are prescibing an anti pshycotic off label. The side effects were a horror show, most of which I was experiencing. Did this Dr not know or not care. Was I not entitled to this information to make an informed decision. Metabolic syndrome at 50, I do not think so.
I read everything I could about withdrawing off the drugs. I took it slow, for about 2 days. I phoned Lillian, told her what I was doing. Alright she said but please be careful and call me at the first sign you need me, day or night. This can be serious. I know but I must. And so my journey began....Drug free