From there to Here

So here we are a year and a half later. How am I. Good question. Struggling but making progress.
I have my sleep patterns under control and this is a vital step. I am sleeping,generally without interuption. Good old depression is my constant companion and everyday is a push. Lillian and I work on coping methods and try to get some idea of what and when my symtoms occur.
For me the conclusion is that I am much more depressive than manic. Actually looking back I cannot recall an episode for at least 4 years. That one we have documented. I laugh at that. I had found an email I had sent and Lillian took a look at it. When you know to look it is all so obvious. We review what that trigger was and slog on. Feb of 2008 I seem to be feeling better and take a serious crack at losing some of this weight. I had jumped about 20 lbs on the meds and never managed to lose it. I have some success, take boot camp,enroll and train for a marathon in Vancouver in May. I start to plan my life and consider doing things that take action. I have wallowed in this deep pit for too long and I must find a way up. Excited I discover Bruce Springseen is playing in Vancouver the end of March so I buy a ticket and plan a trip. Looking to the future, believing things will be good, thats the way to go. Everyone is entranced with the secret and embracing the can do attitude. I head to Van and have a great time with my friends both at Whistler and the concert. This was a huge win, a perfect weekend exactly as I wish my life to be.
When I return I blow my ankle out in the last 3 weeks of training and have to pull out of the marathon. I do not as of yet understand how these things affect me but I am about to.