Shopping

Fall is almost upon us and given the climate I live in, my fall wardrobe has always been the most planned and generally the most enjoyable.
The last several years have been hell in that department. There was nothing enjoyable.
I would possibly lose a few lbs and buy the odd thing with the hope it would look good "once I lost some weight".

Today I went to pick up a jacket I had ordered. As much as I know I have lost the weight I still get nervous trying things on. As I slipped it on and it fit perfectly I was again filled with relief.

Its funny that I feel as unsure now as I did when the weight was escalating.

Fear, I know its not my friend and after listening to Jon Gabriel I believe that even more.
The last years have been lived in fear. Fear of lack.

How much that contributed to my weight gain its hard to say and not something I plan to test. What I do know is it cannot remain in my life.
All these little fears, many subconscious add up to reek big havoc in our lives.

Living consciously means much and applying it to ALL of my life is the most important thing I can do.
So part of my 6 month plan it to search and remove every negative fearful thought.
They have no value and are not real.
Well they become real when I allow them to fester.
September is the 6th month some of us have been together. Huge strides forward in that time. I plan to make even larger ones in the next 6 months.