Lack and self doubt

I am still pondering Jon Gabrials thoughts.
In his book he speaks of lack and how it possibly drives our bodies into fat storage.
Sunday morning on a long weekend. What is it I lack and how do I change that?
Certainly self belief can be counted in.
For a reason I am unsure of I quit the scale this week. Let me back up on that.
My decision had been to follow Leigh Peeles advice and track the numbers rather than rely on one given day. I suspect I felt "fat" one day and did not weigh myself. This has led to several days of not weighing myself and this morning I woke with a fear of what the scale might tell me.
Now I wear my armband and have increased my number of steps. I did my program workout everyday except 1 and have not been eating off plan. SO why the fear? The morale of the story is the scale says I have gained 4 lbs.
There is discussion in the program I am doing that you my see the scale rise in the first few weeks. I spoke with Helen last night and she has had smashing results. Lots weight without cardio. So I do know I cannot have gained real weight. Also my clothes fit fine, possibly looser and I was shopping just a day ago and everything looked great.....so?
So I need to eliminate or confront the things that cause me fear.
The scale goes back to a daily activity as a guide to whats going on. Stepping on it occasionally does not work for me.
Avoidance of anything I perceive to be unpleasant or confrontational is my biggest vice. I causes me to worry about the thing constantly when often the thing is nothing.
This is old behaviour that causes lack in my life.
The reality is we never get rid of our old fears or beliefs. We simply learn to recognize them quicker and employ the coping skills we have learned.
I have a busy week ahead of me.
I will finalize my list of lack and by this time next week it will be gone. Or at least all the bits I can and the ones I cannot will have a plan.
Forward motion. I say it to all of you all the time.
Forward motion, no falling back.
I am also implementing daily pictures back into my accountability.
It does not matter if we post them weekly but I need to face where I am every day.
I will not allow my mind to undo all the hard work my body is doing. Its time for these 2 to get together.

It Fall and I am not going to Fall Back. Forward motion and flight.
Come along, pick up the peices my freinds and join me.