Christmas Day

Have I mentioned I really hate that little voice? The one that pops up and keeps me agitated.
This is the part I hate the most and what I most want to learn to control.

 Maybe the Yoga will help with it.
I suspect inactivity plays a large part .
Since I returned from Thailand I have not been doing much. Nothing for clients but I have to say the one or two that are semi active are not getting as quick a response as they should.
It does seem like inertia reaps inertia with me. Likely it allows the depression to seep in.
Its difficult because I am so much better, bu only so much. I need to see the exptreme depth of Depression I would normally be in and compare it. Haaa A rating scale. They have machines for everything. I need one that could measure brain waves.
Yesterday I was checking thru some mail and came upon something that May have happened. Yes May.
But here I am 2 days later having long dramatic arguments with someone in my head. The reality is it will be resolved no matter and if its true it has a positive financial angle to it. Truly I hate this whole process.
I wonder if it is worse due to inactivity.
All I know is I need to lose it. The only value this type of agitation would be good for is if it caused me to burn mre calories. It doesn't so it has no value. NONE.
Alright I am going to do a few things and attempt to lose the gloom.
Happy Holidays