65/21/ 1 Having faith in your program

I have not blogged for a few days but I am compliant on my program. Had a few down days so missed 2 workouts but nutrition is 100%.
I was thinking of Rachel when I started to write this and the connection I am about to reveal comes from that.
First I wanted to let all of our friends now she is doing well. Strong, positive, brave and lovely.
Having a bit of a tif with a pair of jeans but this too shall pass.
What I wanted to relay was that she has a program in place and will begin her Radiation on the 23.
While I refuse to play down the stress of this time she does seem to be coping well and truly thats all one could expect.
sigh......its so easy to write that and we simply pretend like Oh yeah, the 23. My  heart plunges to know she must endure this. Its not a small thing, not a small thing at all.
The connection? Well I was thinking as I started to write that sheesh Day 65 and my scale is barely moving. Really another almost 4 weeks of sticking to my program and I really am far from happy with my results. Not quick enough, my body is being stubborn and I am leaving for Thailand on the 23rd and I wanted to be thinner.
See the connection?
No, its not really the 23rd. It's that as I started to whine and feel sorry for myself having to do yet another program and still have 65 days and well maybe even more because my body is resilient to losing this BF.
See it yet??
The connection is that we both are on programs.
The difference as to what and why is staggering and I cannot believe I had the audacity to spend one moment or thought of poor me. WTF???
And no I was not comparing myself to Rachel but I could not believe that I had allowed myself to be that indulgent.
Its funny how we can become so focused on self that we really don't allow ourselves to see the big picture.
Stomping my foot like a child. I have choices and I have made choices. I made bad food choices over good ones. I chose to not be strict for the last while. I chose to want to lose this last weight in a more aggressive fashion and I also chose my program.
A program that was 90 days not 28 with miracle results. My point to self is that I need to have and keep faith with my program.
My inspiration....Rachel.
The lesson for me is to slow down, work through it and use gratitude as my driving force not self indulgence.