Pulling it all together

Well that title stands for a lot of things.
The first is that I have too many blogs!! I think I shall continue to use this one as my main stay and link to the others.
Update for any one who reads this and wonders if I had fallen down the well.
NO!
Fortunately my lack of blogging has more to do with time than depression. Thats the good news.
I am on top of my game and business is booming.
Its interesting for me.
For so long I have let things slip without realizing why. The fact that I can think so much clearer and manage the depression creates another item to be dealt with. Time
I have grown accustomed to my lazy lifestyle. The down side was big but I certainly had time to do what ever I wanted.
This too has caused a bit of an internal struggle but I am there now.
I committed to 365 days of Yoga and certainly have not managed it. I needed to see that my intent to commit was what is of importance. Being too busy with work comes first and Yoga does fall far down the line.
Not that I do not want to get there but being reasonable in my expectations of myself and having good priorities.

This internal struggle between reasonable and not stems from crazy Lena and daily I am learning to see the real world.

I have been up and down with my workouts as well and this has been an emotional struggle.
I was astounded ( not in a good way) that I had allowed myself to slip that bad and actually re gain some of my weight.
After 11 months of being on track ...Urggggggggggg
So yesterday I sat down and dealt with my action plan.
I have had a plan all along but bits and pieces were missing and my BP brain does not like unsolved puzzles.
My action plan is done for all aspects of my life and I feel my better.
Plan the work, work the plan,
I know I must simply do things daily and that gets me there but there must be a there.
The other decision that I made was to do with nutrition. I have been lost on that for a while.
I did well with RTP and some input from leigh peele but I have been off animal proteins and feeling uncertain as to Who I wanted to be when it came to food choices.
I did well on Clean earlier in the Year and Jace has stuck to doing Raw and has had tremendous success.
Yesterday he and I chatted and I am not converted....lol
In my Communit-e group I have a count down and am at -42.
So my commitment to RAW is for the next 42. I will see how my body responds, physically and emotionally.
6 weeks should be an Honest trial so that the plan.
Stepped up my workouts yesterday. It was actually something Todd has said in a blog. Why not do a bit more?. Hmmm I thought, good question.
So I will do as much as I can. Add an hour on the treadmill, do a few minutes of HI/LO. It all adds up and I must remember why I do this.
Its for me, the most important person in my life.