Things I love about being In control..

I laugh as I write this. The thing with BP is how quickly your moods can change.
Was it only 10 days ago I was dragging around? This week has been better and its such a relief to realize that the darkness has passed.
Its so nice to enjoy things!
That is the truly tragic and difficult part of the depression. That no matter how good things are or how fun, you simply do not have the ability to enjoy them.
So what is it I am so enjoying at the moment?  The simple fact that I can.
Today was a normal day by normal standards but for me its uplifting.
The fact that I am waking and rising at an earlier hour and not feeling the effects of it. The fact that I am on top of my business and it shows. The fact that I am dealing in real time, not pushing reality away until the world unravels  yet again.
Certainly the light that we are getting these days is one reason but I also have returned to the gym and yoga and have my eating heading in the right direction.
I will not look backward as to why I slipped I will just focus on making it all a habit.
I am close and every day brings me closer.
Its good, its all good and I am thrilled to know that I can indeed do this, drug free.